Ramblings of a dragonwolf

I feel so sick, I just wannt sleep but I have to work and I really don't have the energy.

I feel dizzy and drained.

Why can't I just sleep?

Once tagged by this entry, the assignment is to write an journal entry with six random facts about yourself. Then, pick six of your friends and tag them; no tag backs. This explanation should be included.

1. I'm an Anne McCaffery nut, I loev the pern novels, and the new ones by Anne and Todd

2. I have a bad habbit of forgetting things.

3. I have a sister called Mel Gibson

4. I used to do gymnastics XD

5. I'm a wolf/dragon therian who likes to chew things alot and has a collar

6. I have a marvelous wondful other half called John Hendrick :D

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Well after spending 3 days in my loving partners arms I finally get back online, to find tonnes for me to do and not much time for me to do it in :S Lifes just crazy like that eh?

I got my grant through this morning, so by next wednesday I should have £900 in the bank, another £900 in Jan and another lot in march, yay for moneys!

I've had a great few days, absolutely great, I don't think I've ever been this contented with things before, John's been such a help to me, I really couldn't be without him again. The only thing I don't feel great with is my job, I need a new one that gives me more hours and doesn't make me work like a dog for nothing.

Anyways, I guess I shall have to get ready for the slave drivers now *rolls eyes*

Another time!

They have no RESPECT FOR NATURE!

Even rural part of England aren't haven enough it seems for animals, wild and domestic.

I have had a heart rendering day today involving two animals! One of the avian laridae, and one of the cervidae variety, thats right, one black headed gull, and one male red deer.

The gull I came across on my street!! Even though I live "in the sticks" power lines are still around here as in all villages, it had flown into one, and dropped to its death. I mourned the poor bird and disposed as best I could of it, even in death I didn't want it torn to shreds by cats.

My sister just got here, bearing me even graver news, some imboceile has hit a red male deer, dragging it 40 metres down the road, at which I can only guess his speed was nearing the 100's!

I hope they find peace *winces* I truely do.

Scarlet-Paws

Ok ok, a long way back, when I was 2...I, and my sisters, were sexually abused by my grandfather, this kind of caused a ripple effect, my parents got way too protective, my dad started drinking, had a nervous breakdown etc, we moved to where we are now. We've got on fine up until the last 5-7 years.

My older sister when she was 19 went off to live with her (still present) partner of 38, that caused alot of trouble which we've gotten over and we accept her partner now, he's really nice most of the time. They are 21 and 40 now, with a 22 month old daughter, my niece Amber whom I love dearly.

Then when my sister at 17 got pregnant, he got worse, he's been and had tests, his livers working x3 over normal, and he just doesn't care, he carries on. My younger sisters still a problem which doesn't help, and me and my mom are trying to hold everything together. She had a daughter 5 weeks back, my second niece Carys, and her other half causes us a lot of problems, he hates us seeing her.

If my mom says anything to my father, who still drinks and claimed he was stopping, he just gives her a lot of verbal abuse saying how she's fat and if he had to stop drinking she should stop eating despite her losing 2 stone in worry over the last 3 months.

Things seemed ok on the outside, but my dad drinks, every night and uses my mom basically as a doormat, a slave to do as he pleases anytime he pleases. Its not been so bad up until now. Today he told her he wanted a "proper dinner" she made him what he likes, beef dinner, mashed potatoes, vegetables gravy, even fried his roasted potatoes like he likes them, and he tells her he doesn't want it. A regular occurence. Today it came down to me, I'd had enough of the arguments, having to whether them as the only child in the house and I snapped back at him, I told him he was making my life a misery, and he told me to shut up. I wouldn't. I broke down and cried telling him how things had to change, that I didn't want to see him deteriorate as I have done over the years. That he isn't the person he used to be, hes selfish and ignorant.

He's not my father anymore, its like someone took him and replaced him with a vegetable, an alcohol fueld, violent abusive waste of space. And this is where I am now, in my room, as always, to think about other things, to take my mind of the stupid world I have to live in, but its getting too much for me. If it doesn't stop, I'm going to have to move.